When it came down to it, Yuuri did have to do it alone. He had to find his own strength and be able to overcome all the obstacles his anxiety threw at him. No one else could give him that strength entirely; it wasn't fair to expect anyone to be able to. But they could help. And he wanted Victor there, he really did.

"...I don't want this to end," Yuuri admitted, chewing on his bottom lip after he said it before looking up finally. His eyes were still watery but no fresh tears had fallen as he focuses on Victor. "I just want you to not keep things like that from me. We're both allowed to have our secrets and it's not like I expect you to indulge me in every little thing going on but something like that?" Sleeping with his best friend? "I'd appreciate honesty, Vitya."